Jessica

Yesterday I Smoked with Christina.
Then I went mouse shopping with Megan.
I still don't know what to name her.
We went back to her place and played nintendo
And watched a movie, then Jon and Steve came home
So we went to burgerking.
That's about it, ha.
Subway reminds me of Adrie.

Kay update.


Uh, Two days in a row at Jacobs.
Went home, snuck out to Kevins, and yeah.
Watched a movie, got home around 3am.
Went to the mall with Mike.
Got home, talked on the phone with Chrissy for like 2 hours.
She played me guitar and read me stories. :)
Hung out with this kid.
He kissed me.
I'm friends with George, once again.
Tomarrow I have probation.
Then lamberts for my daring Chrissy whom I love.
Hanging out with Raechel and Christina.
Tuesday I'm hanging out with Megan, buying a mouse.
Then going to Jacobs that night.

I have a wonderful life, kbye.

I hate updating this thing.

Update:

Me and Jade got in a fight.
Adrie ran away.
She drank too much and was sent to the hospital.
She was fine for a while, then she got caught with weed in school.
She was arrested and expelled.
Then she ran away again.
She came home, Inhaled shit and was sent back to the hospital.
She came home last night, I called and talked to her, she's okay.
Me and Jade are friends again, I love him.
I'm gettin rid of all the friends who don't do me any good but to bitch at me.
Me and George, Robbie, ect, arn't friends.
School's out, It just seems so weird, the year went by so fast.
I would like to thank all my friends
Who have stuck by my side through all my ups and downs.
Andrea, Adrie, Aneka, Christina, Catherine, ect, Thank you.

Message to Adrie:
I love you more than anything in the world, and I mean that.
I'm going to be here for you no matter what happends
And I will ALWAYS have faith in you.
Even when you don't have faith in yourself.
You're my best friend, and nothing can ever change that.
"You're what keeps me believing this world's not gone dead,
The strength in my bones, and the words in my head,
They pour out to paper, it's all for you."


I'm getting off probation in August, if my grandma fucking lets me.
She kicked me out the other day, and then unkicked me out?
I'm probably going to end up living with Chelsea sooner or later.

I love my life.
I have everything I could ever ask for, and more.

I was grounded all weekend, which pretty much sucked.
But the reason I'm grounded is kind of funny, ha.
But on the bright side, I'm going to florida next year with my bathbuddy.
Cause I love Andzzzz so much !
I love my lifffe. :)

Hey, boys are lame, ha.
But uh, life is wonderful and perfect.
I went swimming at the lake today.
I had probation, but everything went fine.
Snake bites much?

I snuck out around 10:30 last night to some party.
I drank, passed out on a bed, and woke up naked.
Got home around 8am, snuck back in the window and went to sleep.
I'm never drinking again.

This weekend has been wonderful.
I went to the mall with Aneka, and we walked to stop and shop.
Got tripple C's and were trippin' at the fair :)
Then we got home around 11, and hung out in my room.
And put cotton candy in my hair? Yeah.
Then we woke up around 6, got slushies at white hen and walked home.
Later we went to my lake
We swam all the way out to the dock, and layed there for hours.
Then we swam back, walked home, and took a shower.
I have a really bad sunburn on my arms, ha.
Gtz, gtz.
I love A'nikka!

The drugs produce a short-term mood elevation
Even in people who are not depressed.
In most people the effects of these stimulant drugs are short-lived.
And there is often a letdown or "crash" after they wear off.
During this "crash" the patient can feel very depressed, sleepy, and sluggish.
Nervousness and insomnia are the most common adverse reactions

Ritalin.

I'm going to rip someones head off in 3 seconds.
I need friends I can rely on.
Not ones that will hang out with me if their other plans fall through.
Not ones that replace me with new friends every week.
I'm over dramatic and I don't care.
I'm sick of always sitting home doing nothing, with no one.
Thanks guys, for being such good friends, not.

It's funny how I'm under Jade, AND Max now.
Am I crazy or did Max JUST tell me to kick her ass yesterday.
"I can't think of anyone I hate as much as her."
Pretty fucking cool..
I'm going to go take a freezing bath now.

Robbie wasn't at the busport today
And George wasn't in school, it was pretty lame.
Ha, I still have the picture of me and Robbie last October
Sitting under a table at the haunted house.
I probably would have jumped infront of a tow truck for him to stay.
But he left.

I go back to school tomarrow.
I can't sleep, I had coffee at 10pm, that's probably why.
I hope Adries happy with Jade.
I swear to god if I see him, I will kill him.
Christina's comming over Friday,
Jacob will probably come over too.
I can't think without her.
My mind is always blank.

I'm suspended untill Thursday.
I don't know how well this is going to go over at probation.
I miss Adrie, and Andrea.




In a sick way I want to thank you
For holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself
You were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions
On things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself
When it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away
That I never cross your mind